wierd as it may sound…

so it happened this morning… I woke up… still inside the warm quilt…. but just then had this feeling of hugging someone… I wanted some one, yes a someone, to be here… to be hugging me at this very moment and then putting me back to sleep…. then this someone should keep patting me on the back so that I sleep soundly…..

But sadly there was no one… guess its been long since I’ve been home….

yeh kya hai?

-When you feel the same way even after 4 years,

-When you have those bells ringing just at one sight,

-When you care so much so as not to say a word for 4 years, becuz it might hurt,

-When even in your dreams you feel the same,

-When you just have to close your eyes to feel the presence,

then what is it?

Past

From the last night two things from my past are haunting me. The first is the thought of SK. The thoughts were there in my dreams too. and the second relates to an BIG BIG missed opportunity. Both were failures… no no not failures … they not successes, but I don’t know the reason twhy they both have come back to me at the same time.

I am trying hard to get over them and I know, I will. I strongly believe in leaving behind the things of past and just concentrating on whats at hand right now. I have this strong will power where by I can really resist something which I don’t want. Also I have seen ample people crying over their pasts, crying over things that happened and shouldn’t have happened. These experiences have made me more stronger and focused. I really don’t see myself repenting over anything because I believe that whatever I had done was to the best of my abilities and in accordance to the circumstances. I also know the reasons of my failures…. and also I am working hard to trying to remove those reasons.

But I am still wondering why all these specific events are bugging me on the very same day… may be after several night outs, un healthy routine, without proper food, this is what your brain can think off…

Taare Zameen par – Kholo Kholo

Its actually a very nice song. The parts in bold are my favorite.

kholo kholo darwaze
parde karo kinare
khuntey se bandhi hai hawa
mil ke chudao saare

aajao patang leke
apney hi rang leke
aasmaan ka shamiyana
aaj hamein hai sajana

kyun is kadar hairaan tu
mausam ka hai mehmaan tu
duniya sajee tere liye
khud ko zara pehchaan tu

tu dhoop hain jham se bikhar
tu hai nadee o bekhabar
beh chal kahin ud chal kahin
dil khush jahan teri toh manzil hai wahin

kyun is kadar hairaan tu
mausam ka hai mehmaan tu

baasi zindagi udaasi
taazi hasney ko raazi
garma garma saari
abhi abhi hai utaari

zindagi to hain batasha
meethi meethi si hai aasha
chakh le rakh le
hatheli se dhak le ise

tujh mein agar pyaas hai
baarish ka ghar bhi pass hai
roke tujhe koi kyon bhala
sang sang tere aakash hai

tu dhoop hain jham se bikhar
tu hai nadee o bekhabar
beh chal kahin ud chal kahin
dil khush jahan teri toh manzil hai wahin

kyun is kadar hairaan tu
mausam ka hai mehmaan tu

kholo kholo darwaze
parde karo kinare
khuntey se bandhi hai hawa
mil ke chudao saare

khul gaya aasmaan ka rasta dekho khul gaya
mil gaya kho gaya tha jo sitara mil gaya

roshan hui saari zameen
jagmag hua saara jahaan
udne ko tu azad hai
bandhan koi ad hai kahan

tu dhoop hain jham se bikhar
tu hai nadee o bekhabar
beh chal kahin ud chal kahin
dil khush jahan teri toh manzil hai wahin

Posters in Office

While I was at Google this summer, I saw a lot many posters in Office. They had a knack of modiying the google logo and saying someythings like, “Do you have it in you.” … blah blah…. I always loved those posters.

But see the poster below. Nothing matches such an poster in Office. Perfectly suites the Web Chutney Culture… as seems from their blog. Keep going dudes

Image from Flickr.com

Kiwi, Fucking Awesome!!!

Just watch this awesome video.

For once the penguin did fly.

I love the part when he has achieved what he wanted and there are tears in his eyes.

If in life, you want something badly, then go for it with all you have.

All other things should be secondary.

kya frustapa hai….

abe yaar yeh chal kya raha hai… dono pagal hai… main dono ko maar dunga.. uda dunga goli se…… frust karke rakha hai…. matlab theek hai… hota hai… kuchh aur ho bhi nahin sakta… abe yaar…. I feel bad for them ….. so sorry….

accha ab yeh mat poochna ki abt whom I am talking abt…

accha aur did the right thing…. I am so happy… kitna zyada load kam ho gaya hain apan ki zindagi se… I am loving it!!!

Hope the frustapa ends soon… and brings happiness to both….

random musings

• I take a lot, yes a lot of time to break ice with somebody….. but when that does break then I give myself away too easily… both the things are bad, specially the second one, because people are not always as they seem from outside….
• From the last few days I always keep having this thought- Any thing that you are doing, do it with your best possible effort. But still I am not able to implement it.
• Missed my cousin sisters wedding this weekend… I feel so sorry… I feel I owe her something…
• I have found that my working efficiency goes down when there are few people around me, talking, doing there stuff… or something else… I like to work quietly environment becuz my concentration levels are too low.
• Also I have decided to go slow and probably change the direction of one the aspects of my personal life. The prior path would lead me midst trouble and I have practically seen how hard it is to cope up with that. Also the work I am doing right now is much more important than this stuff.
• But still I would like this aspect to remain as it is, neither degrade… nor go further.
• I am loving Ruby on Rails,  but I have a feeling that we will have to do a lot of optimizations by directly writing SQL queries.
• Deciding  what and how to do stuff is much much difficult than doing doing it.
• I am going to miss another important family function tomorrow… for my new born bhatija… but I have promised bhaiya that I will be his best chacha..
• Why can’t this wordpress editor be full screen….so that I can see a lot prior stuff I’ve written.
• There’s a particular person to whom I want to say – “As if I care“. Intinno dirs. don’t worry, you are not in this list.
• Bahut bhadas nikal li… ab kaam karte hain..